I'm sure you'll find your peace soon, just look at world from better side. If the luck can't find you, find it by yourself and don't spend time asking yourself what did you deserved or not, what is your fault and what isnt. Don't let peoples critize you after all no one can judge you :).
you are so lucky to have this , I'm not talking about vehicle, I'm talking about your boyfriend, please be happy with him and im sure you both will be the best the perfect for each other , just don't have a luck like me , even i dont even want anyone like luck like me , i dont know why i deserved that ?what was my fault ? why i wasn't perfect ? why this all only happened with me ? every morning i ask myself why i deserved that. but in the end im left all alone by myself and now people will critize me and says its sad , i wish if they see things from my side so they understand its so hard to move on , but anyways your lucky satavnic , i just need peace and i cant find it